Sunday, September 30, 2007

Wait!

One time, i was talking to a friend, and we are fairly similar. we were talking about how whenever i get close to somebody or a situation, i pull myself away. As soon as things get going really well, and I start to act more like me...I pull away. With friends, family, and....more honestly, boys. I hate it too. I know these people are amazing, and beautiful and i just...oh...i let them go!

But, today something has been hurting me. And it's this consistent feeling of regret that I always have. It's this pain, I have never felt, it's like a million knives in my chest, unlike anything else.

I never want to feel this again. I never want to regret again. When or if the chance comes again, i want to pour out my heart, become what I AM. I will be strong. And if that's all I can give....if that is everything...there is nothing I could regret.

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