oh Sunday.

i wish i weren't the most mature person in the room.
i feel like i am babysitting a bunch of children who have never heard of respect.

i am being vague....i could just say what i am thinking..

Youth group used to be good. I was challenged, we worshiped as a community, learned as a community, and grew, now i kind of dread going. I'm not even close to being the oldest student there, but i feel like i am. YES, i like to have fun. BUT, i love to worship, and i love to learn. And it really makes me mad when people (...ahem...) can't respect each other or the teacher or even God. A friend and I renamed youth group as "ARG$%&#!!" because that is how we feel whenever we go.


I am going to explode pretty soon.


I need someone who understands me. someone who challenges me. questions me. makes me think harder. someone who is in love with Jesus, and isn't going to forget [about] me....people tend to do that. What i really need is a community.

And this isn't about "filling" me either. It's more about loving Jesus, loving our Father, loving people, living and changing and growing as a group of people who have similar dreams. As a human, I need that and long for that.