"We bring it into being. Let go, be led into the most full present moment," he says to me. "Do those things that make time stop for you. Watch each moment pass you by. The more you let go, the more fully you will be able to make those connections to the universe that stop time."
She says, "I love because my love is not dependent on the object of love. My love is dependent on my state of being. So whether the other person changes, becomes different, a friends turns into a foe, does not matter because my love was never dependent on the other person. My love is my state of being. I simply love."
While I watch the people around me drown themselves in their miscommunications and alcohol dependencies, I try to evade the loneliness that is forever haunting me. I forage and do yoga and run quickly through the woods imitating the deer I'm frightening. I write a song a day in hopes that one of them won't be awful, which is a failure of course. I sleep where I can here the tides. I sleep where I can hear the frogs, where I can't hear the parties or where I feel like I don't belong.
He sums up my thoughts perfectly, "Painting is kind of like life. When you think you have something good, you fall in love with it, you marry it. Then it just ruins it."
So we strive to become better than we are. And everything around us becomes better too.
And when we love, we always strive to become better than we are.
And I love the frog noises at night. The salmonberries. Hazy winter mornings. Sunny summer afternoons. Magic hour before the sun goes down, when the trees are golden. Spring birds in the morning. Calmness at the beach. Peace in the woods. Ocean breeze.
You say you're afraid of getting hurts. Well so am I, but I'm always more afraid of hurting you. My tongue is sharp, my mind is quick, I can do harm without control. But I do my best to only be kind and honest. Especially honest.
Just be an honest, genuine human being to everybody around you and you will become connected to the very life everything is a part of.
"Seize everything. Don't be afraid. It's easy to die."
And she explained to me, "I realized I had just entered an interesting chapter in my life. I had outgrown the boys of my past and not quite grown into the men of my future."
And he said, "It's hard to instill the importance of memorization when information is so freely and instantly available. It's become a world where the path to success is much more muddled, and social skills are beginning to seem more important than academics."
"And so I learned what solitude really was. It was raw material - awesome, malleable, older than men or worlds or water. And it was merciless-- for it let man become precisely what he alone made of himself."
Because some people fill the gaps and other emphasize my loneliness.
"The gods envy us. They envy us because we're mortal, because any moment may be our last. Everything is more beautiful because we're doomed. You will never be lovelier than you are now. We will never be here again."
