Sunday, September 23, 2007

I don't understand myself.

How can I have an wonderful day, but still feel lonely?

I spent the morning studying Ecclesiastes and drinking coffee with an incredible woman. Then I went with a new friend downtown. We went to the Darfur refugee thing put on by Doctors without Borders (which was INCREDIBLE, and i must speak of it later). And I went to the art museum with my new friend. and we talked and talked about everything. Religiosity, Faith, Humanity, Love, Beauty, our Dreams. Then we sat, in the middle of this city, in the middle of a great day...and my heart sank.

And i don't know why. Is it my feelings for refugees all over the world? My frustrations with the world? My dreams and desires? or is it all self-deprecation?


(I am writing this from my new [to me] desk. my dad found it for me because i will need it for the computer he is building me!)

I met an incredible man today. And he has inspired me and encourage me. He is a humanitarian aid worker. He has been to the worst war zones in the world. His life sounds so perfect.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I was hoping to find you and your parents tonight that I may bid thee farewell before my departure.