i can't stop thinking.
i can't sleep either.
i guess those are both kind of good things.

people keep asking me if i am glad to be back, and i haven't been able to answer them clearly. but, now i am able to. the answer is No.

America is boring. the colors are dull, people are much meaner, and more selfish. lines are straight. everything is sanitary, and insulated, and isolated, and untouchable.
How can we live like this?
how can we really live without blurring all these lines? live with vibrancy, and color. have happiness.

corporations and fear of terrorism control everything here. in other countries, you get sick, break your leg, go to the hospital and get fast, quality care and pay very little.
AND they're not drowning in taxes either.

non Americans smile and greet and people they don't even know. not here.
people are real. you can tell by their eyes. they seem much deeper, and fuller. full of kindness and wisdom. not here.
here, all eyes are the same. dull, flat.

and the color. o man, the colors. so full of joy and life. and joy in life. when i look at green here it seems so dull.



yea. even though it seems dull here in the burbs, i'm sure its not like that everywhere in America. and i don't think it has to be like that. i think we can change it. that's for another time though.