mud, hills, and smiles

I love hiking. and caving, and getting dirty...and then showering. ( Abe, I hope those 3 periods annoyed you)

I feel like a lot of the things I have been doing lately have been really challenging and improving some of the things I am naturally good at.

So many girls have incredibly low self-confidence. It hurts me so much that they buy into the lies that society (and pigs) say is truth. I have been lucky to have ladies in my life who don't worry about crappy stuff like that. In the Amazon, we didn't wear makeup, but we were still expected to look nice for going to churches. Looking nice for respect. for beautiful strength. Not for sex. or to cover up insecurities. I like looking good, and make-up is fun. whatever. But, I really respect women who are beautiful and don't wear make up. maybe I'm the only one thinks that. that's okay with me.

I also have this uncommon happiness with being single. Everyone around me seems to be so worried about girlfriends/boyfriends/fiances. For me, I like this freedom. I like being obsessed and madly in love with God only. I feel that if there is no other person in my life right now that makes me fall even more in love with God, then I should be single now. it's so good. for me. the time will come :) but now I am muy contenta.


(I spent this weekend with a bunch of lost, confused, searching kids a bit younger than me who frequently asked me "so have you gone all the way?" and "What?!? Why would you say no to him?". We also talked about whether or not there was some force or God that created the earth a lot. So, that's why my opinions are written here for all to see now).