this college crap is so frustrating.

every time a school offers me a full ride scholarship, my parents assume i will definitely apply there.
Also, they are always saying "WE need to fill out applications" , "WE need to record all your audition music", "WE need to get your art portfolio together", "WE need to write essays". But, this is my life....well God's actually. But, they can't make up for their crappy, selfish decisions by doing this college stuff with me.

And when I told them that I might need to/want to go Africa for a year, they said "God will tell you to go to whatever schools give you a full-ride". HAH!

but, it really does piss me off. They don't even try to understand what I say. I am not going to college because society tells me to, because my family tells me to, because I will get a job, or because it is best for me. I will do what God tells me to, and I can't stand that my family (who are called Christians) cannot understand that. If God tells me to go to school, then I will go, and I know God will bless that. If he says to stay home, then somehow that will work out and he will bless that. If he says to go to Calcutta, then I will jump on a plane as fast as I can and he will use me.