just listen

Does anyone else get crazy frustrated about something, but hold it in because you don't want to blow? And then one day, when you are frustrated beyond your capicity, you just go crazy, and your emotions are so intense you don't even know what to do?

that just happened. the blowing up part.
people don't listen to me. maybe it's how i speak.

or maybe other people are too focused on other things to listen to me.

especially at home. and church (of all places).
i say something, then i say it again, then people ask me to repeat it. so i do.
then they don't care.
at home, i say things to my parents, and they just completely ignore me, or are too busy asking me questions to listen to me. So, they end up getting mad when they don't know the answers to things they asked me earlier. then i get punished.

and now i am frustrated. and mad. and they are frustrated and mad. and i want to get away from them. but i can't. i want to play my song on my piano, but i can't because they won't let me.

and that makes me even more frustrated.

and now they are even more frustrated.

moral of the story: listen to people. have some patience, get your mind off of yourself, and focus on this other person for the few seconds/minutes that they need it. they deserve your attention. and it makes people feel cared for when other people treat them as more important than themselves. (*I know that I need to do this more often. I am horrible at it. But I know how it feels to be the other person, and it sucks)