word vomit.

I miss the woods real bad.

I miss being able to confidently inhale deeply and know that you will feel better.

The safety of the trees. The stars. Critters. Having the people you want to hang out with most a walking distance away at all hours of the day. Mountain people. Swimming in alpine lakes. Wildflowers. Dirt. Being dirty (rather than grimy). My friends.

It's harder to be my honest self here.

I feel tired, upset, on edge most of the time.

I feel useless.

unknown.

alone.

I feel much more alone among the masses of people in the city than when I am alone in the mountains.

just trying to figure things out. and get things out.