I am realizing how worn out I get when I am around other people. Some people feel so energized after being around people, but after awhile I get so tired that I need to be alone again. All those silly tests always say I am introverted (of course I am probably silly for taking all those silly tests)...maybe that has something to do with it.
For instance, today I worked on three group projects, explored the tunnel system of Azusa with some folks, and just sat around for a while with friends, but I was just so tired emotionally that I needed to leave to be alone. Yesterday I went canyoneering in a nearby canyon (don't worry, I had no idea what this was yesterday either...sounds hardcore though, right?), napped, played a concert, watched a movie, hung out with friends...all of these things (except that 30 minute nap) were with other people. I can't tell you how badly I wanted to be alone that night.
When I feel like being alone, I get so irritated with other people. I get really negative and think about all the reasons I don't want to be with the people I am with. Then I generally feel pretty bad when I do get to be alone because I was not incredibly kind to the people I was with.
So basically, I could have just told you that I like to be alone sometimes. Instead I over analyzed my entire weekend. and rambled a bunch. (I'll have lots of alone time this week as everyone else is going home to GiveThanks. I plan on reading on rooftops a lot)
oh yea,those silly tests that I mentioned earlier...I love 'em. For school we had to take this "Strengths Quest" which might seem kind of cheesy...well, it is cheesy...but I love it. I always knew the things I was bad at and felt like I needed to fix them, but this test helped me see that parts of my personality are good and should be remembered and thought about as strengths. (if you know anything about this test...I would love to talk to you about it. I love hearing what other people's strengths are. they help you understand people better and see the good in them so easily). I want to tell you all my top 5 strengths right now...but they would mean nothing to most. I like Myers-Briggs too, but I would feel weird telling you how it classifies me without hearing your results...so I'm not going to tell you on here. (you should take it and then we should talk about it! do it!)
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I also get sapped of energy in large groups. I am an ISTJ. When do you come home for Christmas?
oh, interesting!
I fly home on December 18 and come back on January 4!
Yes, that is exactly what "those silly tests" mean when they say that you are an introvert. :-)
Greenville also does StrengthsFinder, so if you ever wish to talk about it, know that I spent four years immersed in it.
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