Thursday, August 7, 2008

a useless entry...nothing thoughtful or exciting :/

I have just been tired of being at home. sick of the suburbs. frustrated with the tension and worry at home. not wanting to be alone anymore. so I left on monday. I drove down to Peking, Illinois.

I have been staying with different family members and friends around central Illinois. I've just been reading, and walking, and running. laughing and talking with family and friends. whenever I see my grandparents, they want to buy me stuff. It is annoying, because I just don't want anymore stuff. things things things....so many damn things. (i let them buy me some jeans and running shoes....it made them happy)

I like not knowing where I am going next. not knowing when I will leave or where I will go.

oh ha. this morning I was playing my guitar and singing a bit in the beautiful garden oasis in the backyard of this house I slept in. I stopped because I was going to leave, and realized that the neighbors had their heads over the fence watching me....I can't explain the awkwardness. i just smiled, chuckled a bit, blushed a lot, and hurried away.

1 comment:

Unknown said...

Oh, that's why you weren't here last night. :)