It is so weird being home. I am uncomfortable and I don't really know how I feel. I have heard about how God has been working here since I left, and it upsets me that I have missed all of that. I am frustrated that I don't have a community to run to and embrace right now. I have no community to spur me on or to worship and grow with and that is going to be really difficult.

I guess what I feel right now is...mostly detached. But also discontent, irritable, out of place, and impatient as well.

I will be forgiving with those who don't understand.
I won't take out my hostility or irritability on others.
I will be in the word, prayer and worship.
I will be patient with others.
I will write to my team.

I surrender my will, my feelings, my mood, my attitude.