titles are NONSENSICAL

so...my new doctor is a vegetarian. She told my parents the exact same thing I have been telling them for the past year. it is great.

AND she told me that I have asthma. wonderful. I am training for a stinking triathlon and I have asthma. It is bloody frustrating when I am running or swimming and my muscles are not tired, but my lungs are and they start acting stupid, but I can do it mentally and otherwise physically. I get frustrated with my body and want to rip out my lungs some days. But my lovely doctor gave me some medicine, so I will be able to train. phew.
ALSO...why do I get asthma now? Now that I do some kind of cardio activity everyday for the past year, I get this. People that don't exercise should get this.

the only free place to swim is my school. this is not good because 1. it is from 5am-6am 2. very skilled swim team members are there at the same time as me, and i feel lame 3. i am not sure am actually allowed to be there. oh well. oh yea, I hate training by myself. I push myself pretty far, but then I settle for my own standards, which aren't nearly as high as some other people's. Their standards would make me a much better...*ahem*...athlete.



My body is a cage
That keeps me from dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
My body is a cage
That keeps me from dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
I’m standing on the stage
Of fear and self-doubt
It’s a hollow play
But they’ll clap anyway
I’m living in an age
That calls darkness light
Though my language is dead
Still the shapes fill my head
I’m living in an age
Whose name I don’t know
Though the fear keeps me moving
Still my heart beats so slow
My body is a cage
We take what we’re given
Just because you’ve forgotten
Doesn’t mean you’re forgiven
I’m living in an age
Still turning in the night
But when I get to the doorway
There’s no one in sight
I’m living in an age
Realizing I’m dancing
With the one I love
But my mind holds the key
Still next to me
My mind holds the key
Set my spirit free


oh...Kate Nash is great. I can't find an album of hers anywhere :**[
PLEASE, tell me if you know where I could get it!!!