I can't really explain my love of Sundays. They are always my favorite day of the week. Keeping the sabbath is something I have come to love.
I feel like a lot of the time when I say I pray, I don't actually pray. I like to just be in the presence of God sometimes. Just me and Him. Neither of us have to speak. And it just makes me so happy, so content to be with someone who loves me that much and who I am learning to love. I know how badly he wants to be the lover of my soul and I hate that I consistently run after other things that I think will please me, but he knows I will never find something as good as Him. I know I will never find something as good as Him.
Imagine him just longing after me wanting me to love him, but instead I ignore him and I love myself, and boys, and love , and food, and the acceptance of other people, and adventure...but mostly myself. I imagine him watching me loving everything but him, and it makes me think of all the times I have watched other people love everything but me and how heart-wrenching that feeling is. How can I treat the one who loves me like no one will ever love me like I do? (woah, that was a confusing sentence)
But He can teach me to love Him, and I am the most ready to learn now than I ever have been. And His Spirit is in me because of His son. And His spirit within me produces incredible fruit in my life, specifically the ability to love. And that makes me so excited. like jump-up-and-down, dance-around-the-room, talk-way-too-loud-for-the-situation-I'm-in-and-make-people-stare excited.
I could run with super-speed like Elijah.
(please call me and I will tell you this story if you don't know it. It is my favorite story ever. ever. The way I tell it will make you love it too. You could read it yourself, but I would be absolutely thrilled to tell it to you. thrilled.)
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I intentionally took a sabbath one or two years during college. It was wonderful. I encourage you to do that on purpose and do it at just about any cost. Having a day off is so great, and most college students do not allow themselves that blessing.
Also, being silent with God is awesome. I learned how to do that in college too, but fear I have not done it in FAR to long.
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