In about one month I am going to Peru. It has been on my mind more than anything lately, and I can't really figure out how I am feeling. I am excited...but I am also nervous. So maybe that is anxious. They expect me to get to know the team pretty well before we even meet in Atlanta. They want me to do this online. I hate that because it is so easy to be different online, and I am afraid of making assumptions about people before I actually meet them in person...and I am afraid they will do that about me too.

I have never lived out of a bag for a month. or wondered if I could shower for a month. I have never lived on a boat. in a rain forest. with people i have never met.

so this is making me very very very happy...and afraid, and nervous, and joyful. it makes me want to dance, and dream, and run, and shake.

(perhaps I am bipolar)