A friend told this to me about 5 months ago (and is possibly reading this):

You hit this moment where you realize your friends are going different ways and when you return home on breaks you will all be a little different from who you were, and at first it's sad, and you will get sad. But, then it's exciting. Suddenly you're free. Suddenly no one knows you. Suddenly you can be someone new. You'll get there. But, now in the next two years you get to decide who you are. The next two years are exciting even for as long and arduous as they may seem from here. And sometime halfway through your junior year you'll realize what those people say and do, it doesn't matter. They can't hurt you. They may never see you again.

So that's where I am...halfway through junior year, and he was right. Right now, I am finding out who I am. I am watching my friends that are seniors getting ready to leave, and the freedom that they feel right now. Rules and school are no longer important to them. The relationships that they are leaving behind are what really matter to them. Living their lives with the people that are in it at this moment is important. Because everyone will change, and the only time to live life now, is now, and that will be gone.
And I am watching the people that have gone to school and are back on break. And they are all different, but still their relationship is the same. It's true, they have all changed, grown [up] perhaps, and are a bit different. And at first it is sad because things won't ever be the same, but exciting because you both have learned new things and changed.
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I've lost some of my passion. and I need it back.